Wednesday, December 27
Metamorphosis Stage 5
High school's over, but that doesn't mean I'm no longer a teenager! Life, has only just begun. With a brand new year ahead, of course there will be resolutions. I would have given up on new year's resolutions if I didn't accomplish any of them during the previous year. Although there are some things that remain how they were, and changes I didn't make. But anyhow, here are mine for year 2007.
1. Submit, Commit All Of It to God
This is the vow I made in HUGE camp. And this is the deepest impact HUGE camp left in my heart this year. No longer I, but Christ who lives in me! I gotta stop living my life my way, but surrender every inch of my life to God with faith. Blessings are the rewards of obedience towards Him. Also, I wanna continue to serve him and make differences and create impact in the youth ministry. Not by my strength but by His. I'm not saying this because I'm qualified (although I do have certain gifts and talents... haha!) but because God doesn't call the qualified. He qualifies the called.
2. Seriously, study.
I don't give a darn anymore how my SPM results may turn out (unless I got a nightmare A2 in my English or Modern Math, or anything like that). SPM is very serious, but it's not the end of the world! College is where I will repent and redeem myself. I wanna have an awesome college life! Great grades, fun friends and cool college life.
3. Miss [More] Independent
Gotta stop relying on Mom and other people. When I'm out there, it's me against the world. Harsh, harsh reality. Turning 18 already, for crying out loud!
4. All rounded and rocking!
Get a part time job, take guitar lessons, go hip hop dancing... do something!
5. Buy my own car! (Alright, monthly installment.)
With great power comes great responsibilities!
6. Emotions...
This one new year's resolution I failed to accomplish last year. But at least, I'm still trying right? I tend to behave according to how I feel. The real world doesn't buy this kind of crap I know. So I'm cleaning my act up. Wish me all the best!
7. Giving All I've Got
So Mom's not happy with my choice of studies, Mass Communications. All the more I should show her I have got what it takes to excel in this, and I'm serious about it. I have only one goal the moment I know I want to study Mass Communications and that is to be the editor-in-chief of Seventeen magazine. I might have no certain talents, but I know I won't regret a thing if I did my best.
8. Seriously, have fun!
Don't stress out so easily and get stressed out too much. There's a much bigger picture in life I don't wanna miss!
9. Be productive
Don't sit there and do nothing all day. If I must, do something fun! Get up and live life!
10. Talk more... to mom.
This is probably the hardest resolution to accomplish. Especially in times like these. But I will try.
Sunday, December 24
two.thousand.six
As I've mentioned. This year, 2006 has been one heck of a dramatic year for me! With no further a due, I shall present to you... My 2006.
1. Form 5
SPM, National Service, Graduation. Lazy wanna elaborate on this because I'm OUT of high school... wahahaha!!!!
2. PESS' Best International Understanding Day E-V-E-R!
3. The FLOOD.
Haha... yeaps. The knee-length flood of water in the colour of 'teh tarik' in MY house. Spent the whole night cleaning up with the help of (granma's) church members. Ended up with a bad backache and sore feet... ouch! Next day I ponteng school, kaka!!
4. Dates with 8tv.
I was doing my Tatabahasa on Tuesday night (still remember so CLEARLY) after watching Desperate Housewives. Then there was the 8tv Quickie, Marion and Adam were still the hosts then. Being my playful self, and wanting to win tickets for Clickfive's concert tickets or something... I tried my luck calling in. And never would I thought I got through! And I went on air, talked to Marion and Adam! Woopee! Adam said my name is nice, hehehe! I won Yellowcard's "Lights and Sounds" CD. So happy! And, Mom went to the 8tv studio to get my prize and she met Rina! Rina gave me an autographed postcard and also an extra CD (Simon Webbe's). Fuiyo...!! Some time later, 8tv Cruiser people came to my school. Rachel C and me were like freaks answering questions and winning and taking free gifts! Woohoo... happee moments, happee moments indeed. >_<
5. Funky red spects.
Boy, who knew that one pair of spectacles can cause so much drama? Yeap, my funky red spects. I don't care what you think. I LOVE it. Hehe! My beloved spects attracted attention in school like traffic lights. Haha... and indeed the discipline teachers were very much "ATTRACTED" since I was after all, a prefect. I remember running away, hiding and taking off my spects whenever I was 5 feet away from THE teachers and especially "Crazy Frog". Who can forget her man? She was obviously JEALOUS of my cun spects which are like 10 times funkier then hers. And she bothered telling me my spects were "The Most Outstanding Ones" in school. I'm honoured. If it wasn't for me who made the breakthrough, NO ONE in school would dare wear colourful spects. Wahahaha... thank you thank you! The news of my striking spects went to the afternoon sessions as well. I was POPULAR man! -_-"
6. Rocker Chick to Girly Girl.
No, I'm not talking about Avril Lavigne. Recently, my bro (Ben) made me realized that I followed her footsteps. For a few years, I have always been everything punkish and rockish. Now I'm 17... and in love. And BAM. The girl has gone girlyfied. Thank God I'm not getting married soon to some lead singer of some punk rock group. Lol. I would NEVER have thought I will crave girly stuffs like pretty skirts, bohemian earrings, high heels (man, THAT was my greatest achievement of being a girl! haha...) and makeup. I will always remember what Ian said to me one night... "FINALLY, you look like a GIRL." What the lurve. Hmph. >_<
7. New Found Passion.
Medicine has gave way to Mass Communications. Ignoring the fact that I suck in science, a voice in my heart assures me that I will kick butt in this field. (Oh, alrite. Angeline was the one who said that initially. And her words motivated me more.) My goal is to be the editor-in-chief of seventeen magazine. It might take a very long time and lotsa hard work, but I believe I can. I have what it takes to be in this field:
Motivated
Analytical (I'm not sure about this though. Haha..)
Sanguine
Systematic
Mover
Energetic
Determined
Integrity
Action-oriented
Now, lemme just negotiate with mom about this... -_-"
I cannot resist to leave this out. I'm still single, trust me, but unavailable. Because this time, I've fallen in TRUE love. I realized now this is the real deal. It has opened my eyes, and it's just super WOW. Whoever who says love is blind, must be literally blind. Love is NOT blind. If you're convinced you're not having any problems with your vision but still thinks that love is blind... go dig your eyes out. Yeah, I've had my first love (gotten over him already la). But this guy I'm in love with I'm somehow very sure he's my TRUE love (oh FYI, Jesus is my first AND true love. Jesus is different in this case ohkay?). Sounds corny? It's a part of love. Hehe. He's my best friend. And our differences didn't even give me a thought that we would be one day, today, in love. Of all the guys I've dated, he is indeed special from the inside out. Please don't get the idea that he's spastic or what lah. Haha... he's seriously different. Everything EVERYTHING about our relationship is so special and unique. I can go on forever about us but let's save the details for us ya? Hehe...
Wednesday, December 20
Lala...
I can't believe it's the 20th of December already! SPM seems like it ended yesterday! Time has been moving rapidly! HUGE camp, Planetshakers, and bam! We're here. Carolling this weekend, and then there's Christmas. Sighs. So many things to do, so little time! And mom is pressuring me about college. Sweat! I don't see any difference pre and post SPM. On the surface I may look like a don't give a damn (because that's the impression I like to give, haha!) about everything, but the truth is, I do. Haha... okay la. Maybe sometimes I really don't care lah. So don't push it. >_<
December is the relax and lazy month for me. I don't want to think about college (but I did. I'm going for the March intake, taking my diploma in mass communication before majoring in journalism). I wanna take my undang and driving lessons also but haven't got the chance to see the driving tutor. And I wanna get a job. But I don't know where. Sobs. I wanna get my cellphone lah. Anyway, I'm also joining YES (Youth Enrichment School) from 3rd-13th of January 07. Which means I have to start working AFTER that. More delaying. Sighs. Maybe my cellphone will reach my hands the day before my first day of college or something. Haha... I don't wanna go college without one la. Super kesian. Sobs.
And I so wanna get my tote bag I saw in Sg. Wang's Momoe that day. Damn I regret big time I did not buy it. Now I hafto make a trip to town JUST to get the bag. OKlah, maybe catch a movie too. Hehe.. so far I cannot find any other yang setanding with it. Girly, yet not mature. Soft and big enough to fill all my crap. Haha... nola. Main important thing I want my bag to fill is my beloved Bible. Yeaps. And now that I'm getting girlier, I can chuck all the lip gloss, eyeliner, mirror, comb, purse, cellphone (!!) and other junks in my bag. Heheeeeeee!! OK, I'm getting it this Friday! Woopee...!
Sighs. The year's gonna end. I feel 2006 has been one heck of a dramatic and fun year. Fabulously awesome being 17 this year. I shall look back 10 years from now, not regretting any moment of 2006. I'm grateful to God, and thank Him for all the tremendous blessings He showered in my life.
Await my next post... my New Year's Resolutions and dramas of year 2006! *wink*
Tuesday, December 19
Time-killin' Quizzes. Haha...
***Which HSM character are you?***
The Drama Queen Bee, Sharpay
Brava! You love the limelight, and everyone in school suspects your talents will take you to Broadway, Hollywood, or your own talk show chair--maybe all three! Just be sure to share the spotlight with others--you might learn a thing or two about taking on different roles, even ones (gasp)behind the scenes!
Which HSM character are you?http://quiz.ivillage.com/seventeen/tests/20060614_musical.htm
The Drama Queen Bee, Sharpay
Brava! You love the limelight, and everyone in school suspects your talents will take you to Broadway, Hollywood, or your own talk show chair--maybe all three! Just be sure to share the spotlight with others--you might learn a thing or two about taking on different roles, even ones (gasp)behind the scenes!
Which HSM character are you?http://quiz.ivillage.com/seventeen/tests/20060614_musical.htm
***how deep is your love?***
Deep
Congratulations--the love you and your guy have is deep! There's no need to doubt your guy's intentions--he clearly thinks the world of you, and takes what you have very seriously. The reason your relationship is so meaningful is that it's based on respect and trust. The best part? It's 100 percent mutual. Keep being good to each other and check out the tips on p. 98 of Seventeen's November issue to make your love even stronger!
how deep is your love? http://quiz.ivillage.com/seventeen/tests/20060622_deeplove.htm
Deep
Congratulations--the love you and your guy have is deep! There's no need to doubt your guy's intentions--he clearly thinks the world of you, and takes what you have very seriously. The reason your relationship is so meaningful is that it's based on respect and trust. The best part? It's 100 percent mutual. Keep being good to each other and check out the tips on p. 98 of Seventeen's November issue to make your love even stronger!
how deep is your love? http://quiz.ivillage.com/seventeen/tests/20060622_deeplove.htm
P/S: This particular quiz I took is just for fun and not based on my relationship with my boyfriend, because I don't even have one! Lol...
***what's your international flava? ***
Fearless Foodie
You are one brave girl! You have no fears, and are willing to try anything at least once! You need some unique flavors for a unique lady! The best international tastes to get your taste buds going are Indian and Japanese food. Although they're very different from each other, they both offer many dishes that only a fearless gal like you would try! Enjoy the exciting flavors of Chicken Vindaloo (a spicy dish made with cinnamon, cloves, chili powder, garam masala, and ginger). Or, do something really daring and enjoy Japanese Nigiri, bite-sized mounds of rice topped with raw fish.
what's your international flava? http://quiz.ivillage.com/seventeen/tests/20060517_flava.htm
Fearless Foodie
You are one brave girl! You have no fears, and are willing to try anything at least once! You need some unique flavors for a unique lady! The best international tastes to get your taste buds going are Indian and Japanese food. Although they're very different from each other, they both offer many dishes that only a fearless gal like you would try! Enjoy the exciting flavors of Chicken Vindaloo (a spicy dish made with cinnamon, cloves, chili powder, garam masala, and ginger). Or, do something really daring and enjoy Japanese Nigiri, bite-sized mounds of rice topped with raw fish.
what's your international flava? http://quiz.ivillage.com/seventeen/tests/20060517_flava.htm
***What's Your Perfect Scent?***
J. Lo Miami Glow
The name says it all—J.Lo's newest perfume embodies the Miami lifestyle, and it's a perfect match for your girly, fun—loving personality. You're all about using bronzers to get a sun—kissed look, and Miami Glow—which is packed with tropical scents like coconut, passion fruit, and vanilla—is another way to maintain the illusion that you spend every day at the beach.You'll also love: Island Michael Kors, Curious Britney Spears, Cacharel Amor Amor Eau Fraiche
The name says it all—J.Lo's newest perfume embodies the Miami lifestyle, and it's a perfect match for your girly, fun—loving personality. You're all about using bronzers to get a sun—kissed look, and Miami Glow—which is packed with tropical scents like coconut, passion fruit, and vanilla—is another way to maintain the illusion that you spend every day at the beach.You'll also love: Island Michael Kors, Curious Britney Spears, Cacharel Amor Amor Eau Fraiche
Thursday, December 14
SOLD
That's the theme for HUGE (Have U Got Enuf?) camp 2006! Of course the princess has been looking forward to it since forever! The camp was held in Malacca again, in Watercity Resort from 11th-14th December. Lemme start with the accomodation. The 3-room apartment is simply gorgeous completed with living room, dining area, 2 bathrooms and a kitchen. Man, I so felt like the apartment's my own during that four days. Haha... just gorgeous. The whole resort was literally on water, hence its name. I didn't go for kayaking because of the monthly 'blood donation' I had on the first day. Sweats. The food was as usual, buffet food. Not as many variety as last year, but still
The speaker for the camp is Rev. Mike Pilavachi from England. He used to be the youth pastor for Matt Redman, you know the dude who wrote the song, "Heart of Worship". Ain't that cool? And, Mike also brought with him 4 'disciples' from England, US and Aussie. One of them was constantly, publicly but jokingly bullied by Mike. His name is Jonathan D and he's shortest amongst the four but he is the cutest. Haha... he's got dimples, and a fine body. Lol... anyway I took pictures with him, and I got his autograph too. Hehe... they were very much like celebs in HUGE, especially Jonathan. Many girls went up to him on the last day to take pics and get his autograph. Lol. Anyway, Rev. Mike is SUPER funny and his sermons were very mind and heart awakening. Love to share the funny lots but there are just too many! Hehe! There was also a band from Indonesia called Psallo. I simply admire the worship leader because his voice is WOW. And he's really friendly too, took piccies with him. Woohoo! =P
Learnt so much from the camp, really. And God's presence was so real and for the first time, i cried my heart out, pouring out all the anger I have in me. The anger especially towards my parents. I thought I've already forgiven my dad but that night I knew I haven't. And my mom. I've never been so angry at her and never hated her until this level. That night, I ended up being prayed for healing instead of anointing FOR the power healing (which was my initial purpose of going forward to the altar). My hands were shaking like crazy, tears continue flowing although I didn't feel like crying at all, I choked and wept like mad. There's this nice lady who came up to me and prayed for me. She gave me the tightest hug I ever had and I almost couldn't breathe! Lol... but when it was over. I feel like a huge, big and hidden burden just gone from my heart. Peace and patience came over me. The camp was basically and all about surrendering EVERY part of ourselves; our heart, mind, soul, strength, body to God. thus, the theme: SOLD. The key verse here is in Galatians 2:20.
On the last day, all the leaders and pastors came forward to build a 'prayer tunnel', a tradition of HUGE. And all the youths will go through the tunnel, being prayed for. After listening to Rev. Mike's sermon on healing, I know when we pray for someone, we don't push them or what but just let the Holy Spirit push them. However, I don't know why some pastors still do that la. Haha, I felt one of them pushing me but then I refused to. Lol... I want to fall because of the real deal. But when I was going through the tunnel, the Holy Spirit was SUPER real. My hands were shaking like they never did before, even after I came out of the tunnel. What a tremendous blessing! I didn't want to cry, I just felt happy and smiled because I knew God will do His job.
HUGE has also revived the patriotism in me. It made me realized and question about our own nation. What about them? God created them, and loves them just as much as He loves us who are His children. And we are not born in Malaysia by accident (although some parents say that, haha!!) or by chance but because God planned it to be that way. And many of us dream of leaving the country and stay overseas. If Malaysians are not for Malaysia, who is? So, it should be our objective and passion to reach out and save our own nation!
Four days of experiencing God cannot be described in words. It's way beyond words. I have been truly blessed in this camp spiritually. Although I have faced so many problems with my own youth group, I am surrending all that to God. Even if I give my best to solve the problems, they will never be solved if they aren't what God has planned at the first place. So yeah, HUGE camp rocks! =)
one FREE hill.
Friday, December 8
one FREE hill.
What a title! Terkeluar from my poor brain after much brainstorming (more like brain juice squeezing) and headaches for the last 3 weeks. YEap it was the Sijil Paling Menyampah Pelajaran Malaysia (SPM). My last paper ended yesterday. Yeah only YESTERDAY. So menyampah u noe. Kena teasing la, and have to work my brain out for extra 3 days when other people can lepak and bermaharajalela in shopping malls d. Sobs. Neway SPM's lyke the last thing I wanna blog about now. Haha...
Today the princess went out with Mei Yen a.k.a. Helmet Head Girl (gosh I'm so mean!) a.k.a. Miss Paranoid. Jokin ni Yennie. Anyway I never expected da outing is fun la. Hehe... shopping all da way. Well, me only la. I'm da one who kept taking out my purse and donating disposing my money to unknown people in return of teddy bears and nail polish and bohemian earrings and WWJD wristbands. And and and, I re-visited that gorgeous girly knitted tote bag in Momoe. It costs over 40 bucks after discount and I was sooooo into it. Unfortunately Yennie said it wasn't worth it and I was feeling I spent alot d even though the amount of money I brought was ample for everything I wanted to buy (which of course involved the tote bag). Now I can only look out for cheaper girly totebags yang berkualiti.
So I was planning to go to Starbucks to ask how do I apply for a job there. So excited and stuffs until this very sentence broke my heart and dream into a gazillion pieces: "You have to be 18 years old and above to work here." Waaaaa!! How can!! 17, 18, what's the difference?! Lol... so sad la. And they were giving away this really cun Starbucks planner when you purchase particular beverages from there. I didn't feel like buying even the empty cup from Starbucks after they told me that. Sobs. No matter how much I miss their frappucinos. Hehe..
The only 2 things that ruin the joie de vivre of being 17 is SPM and not being able to work in Starbucks. Hahaha... that's all for today la. Cheerios!~
P/S: Me best buddy goin to youth camp from tomorrow onwards til Tuesday. I'm going for HUGE camp from Monday til Thurs. So that means I don't need to see him for 6 days! Wahahaha....!! Nola... lol. Gonna miss ya lots, reli reli!! Hehe... happy?? =P
